Anxiety and Weight Loss: To Lose or Not to Lose

I spent a good portion of last year with a severe case of anxiety.  There was this guy who was *totally* wrong for me and, of course, I couldn’t quite get over him.

Although the anxiety, sleeplessness, etc. was horrible, it had one positive side effect: weight loss.  I literally could NOT eat.  I ate once a day, whatever I wanted and miraculously lost about 40 lbs.

I got over the boy (and the anxiety) and decided to channel my energy in a positive direction.  I went to the gym 3 to 5 times a week, started eating more “normally” and felt generally good about myself.  I loved shopping for new clothes because every time I’d go, I’d have to buy a smaller size.  I even wrote this blog about how weird weight loss can sometimes feel.

Then I met a new boy… things were good (for a while anyway…that’s a whole other story!).  The holidays came and went and I slacked a bit on my diet and excersise.  Now, here I am…it’s almost April and I’ve put on 20 lbs.  I’m in a much better place emotionally, but I’m having a hard time getting back on the diet bandwagon.  I’m not excersising like I should.

I’ve tried going back to the once-a-day diet, but without the anxiety it is MUCH harder to stick to.  Although I don’t miss having anxiety, I do miss the easy weight loss.  And as weirded out as I was about everyone talking about my weight, I do miss the positive reinforcement.   UGH!

Anyway, I’m sitting here feeling fat and lazy because I haven’t been to the gym in almost 2 weeks and thought getting my feelings out might help.   Anyone out there have advice for me?  Words of wisdom?